Yesterday was Father’s Day.\u00c2\u00a0 Ok, this wasn’t news to anyone, but it got me thinking.\u00c2\u00a0 I actually saw my dad yesterday which wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t had to take my little brother to Shreveport.<\/p>\n
To put it in a nut shell:\u00c2\u00a0 my dad sucks.\u00c2\u00a0 He’s a terrible father (not the worst but still a long way from wearing a #1 DAD t-shirt) and an even worse husband.\u00c2\u00a0 I really don’t know why why my step-mother has stayed with him for so long.\u00c2\u00a0 I think I would have ditched him if he weren’t my father.\u00c2\u00a0 He’s had some good moments at being a dad, and while they were brief and intermittent, I enjoyed them.\u00c2\u00a0 I like my dad when he’s being silly and trying to make me laugh…or I did like it, when I was growing up.\u00c2\u00a0 The thing about my dad is that he stopped maturing at about the age of 18 most likely due to the drugs he consumed before then.\u00c2\u00a0 Everything he does resembles what an 18 year-old boy would do.\u00c2\u00a0 Everything!\u00c2\u00a0 Money, relationships, reactions, attitude….everything.\u00c2\u00a0 He has no concept of consequences.\u00c2\u00a0 He can’t seem to grasp the fact that the actions that he chooses will have consequences and most of the time they effect everyone living under his roof including my 12 year-old brother.<\/p>\n
My dad spends money like it grows on trees, and what’s worse is he barely works.\u00c2\u00a0 It’s my step-mother who works her ass off to pay the bills (most of which my dad caused).\u00c2\u00a0 He expects a hand-out from anyone in the family.\u00c2\u00a0 He even asked me where his gift was yesterday, and totally blew off the card that was presented to him.\u00c2\u00a0 Truthfully, I didn’t get him a gift because I don’t want to spend money on his no good ass. I guess I could have saved my money that I spent on the card.\u00c2\u00a0 It would have also saved me time since it’s hard to find a card that wouldn’t be telling a lie.\u00c2\u00a0 He’s not a great father nor anyone I admire so there’s no use in giving a card that says he is.\u00c2\u00a0 It would just be a lie, and not even a well told one.<\/p>\n
My father has pretty much had a lifelong problem with drugs often cleaning up only to go back eventually; we never know how long eventually will be.\u00c2\u00a0 However, lately he’s been off street drugs for quite a while.\u00c2\u00a0 But….he’s become dependent on some prescription drugs.\u00c2\u00a0 And lately he’s been having a lot of stomach and sleeping issues which I think we all agree are caused by the pills.\u00c2\u00a0 He’s not responsible with his consumption of them, and he seems to be taking more trips to the hospital every month.\u00c2\u00a0 And to be quite frank, I don’t even care anymore.\u00c2\u00a0 I know that sounds super harsh, but I just can’t make myself feel sorry for him.\u00c2\u00a0 I can’t pity someone who dug their own hole and still blames everyone else for their problems especially when they keep making the same mistake over and over.\u00c2\u00a0 I can’t even stand hearing him talk.\u00c2\u00a0 It’s all about him, him, him.\u00c2\u00a0 He is blind to the fact that his family is suffering.\u00c2\u00a0 He thinks he’s the victim, but he’s also the offender.\u00c2\u00a0 I wish he would just grow up already, but that will never happen.<\/p>\n
I keep hoping that he’ll get a wake-up call, but he’s already been to jail for drug related crimes.\u00c2\u00a0 That sobered him up for quite awhile, but then came eventually…and here we are.\u00c2\u00a0 He was in jail when my little brother was born.\u00c2\u00a0 What more of a wake-up call can one need?\u00c2\u00a0 I very rarely talk with my little brother because I can’t stand to deal with my dad.\u00c2\u00a0 When I saw him yesterday he made my skin crawl.\u00c2\u00a0 He didn’t notice and kept right on telling me about all of the problems he was having.\u00c2\u00a0 I want to argue to his logic, but it’s useless.\u00c2\u00a0 He’s hot-tempered and delusional.<\/p>\n
I usually stray from writing hurtful things about anyone I know on here, but at worst he might actually read it and learn something.\u00c2\u00a0 However, I doubt that he will ever see it, and that’s okay too.\u00c2\u00a0 It’s just meant as a way of venting for me in my space.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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