That’s the sound of my biological clock ticking away. It gets a little louder with every birthday that I celebrate. It’s a constant reminder that I haven’t achieved the BIG thing in life I have always dreamed about – children! However, I used to worry I might never get to this point in my life because I’d never find a man to marry. But now that I’ve got the man thing down, I am starting to not feel so panicked about this giant step in life. And with the wedding consuming so much of my time and attention, I’ve actually been thinking about drastically less and yet more. Weird? Well, I haven’t been focusing on the “OMG! It might never be my turn” part and started focusing on the “we better get ourselves in order” way of of thinking.

In my free free time (HA!), I’ve been reading books and doing tons of research on all thing babies. I bought a couple of books with a gift card I got from one of my kids at the school where I work. One is for saving money once baby is here called Baby Bargains, and the other is called What to Expect Before You’re Expecting. I love the Baby Bargains. It is full of so much useful information. It’s really going to help us save money. Although as a natural saver, I was already planning on doing it as cheaply as possible (within reason). Babies aren’t cheap, but I don’t see why they have to be any more expensive than necessary. The other book has it’s good information and it’s not so good information. There’s a lot of good advice about insurance and maternity leave that I might not have thought about, but then there is book’s nutritional section which is just laughable. Though I was impressed with some of there should eats, a majority of it just made me laugh at loud. It’s so conventional wisdom.

We plan on trying shortly after the wedding, but I don’t want to attack the process too seriously, at least not at first. I wanna see how it goes at first. If in 6 months, we’re still not pregnant, then perhaps we’ll have to start keeping a closer eye on all the details if you know what I mean. Just knowing that this could be a real possibility in the next year has made me want to start nesting. It seems odd because who knows when or if we’ll get pregnant, but I just can’t help myself. For example, my co-worker and best friend gave me some stuff for our charity garage sale. When I was organizing her donation, I discovered a Winnie-the-Pooh costume from The Disney Store. It’s a 3-6 months, and I hope that saving it pays off. Am I crazy? I’ve already started collecting books and other baby things. I’m baby crazy!

It’s been really interesting to see Bryan’s reactions to all of my baby talk. He definitely wants children, but at first, he was always quiet when I brought up the subject. He said he was super scared, and who wouldn’t be? I am! But I’m more excited and ready! Now he seems pretty excited too! It’s nice to hear him talk openly about having kids. And even though I’m really, really ready, I want it to come in it’s own time. Right now I need to focusing on getting hitched. Then we can focus on the other stuff. And like I said, even after the wedding, it’s not a rush to get pregnant. I just hope it happens without a lot of thought on my behalf, and that it comes and the perfect time for us. 🙂

So, here’s the part where you all get to give me tons of advice…and hopefully, hand-me-downs when we do actually conceive. 😉

Valentine’s Day Pictures:

bryan

soy sauce

flowers

dessert

battleship

v n b

me and the flowers

Pictures from Our 2 Year Anniversary:

bad, just bad!

Recent Videos of the Cats:

Songs I’m Digging at the Moment:

Naturally – Selena Gomez

The Middle – Demi Lovato